حاضري… أم زماني ..

إحساس غريب ..

يداعب خيالي ..

يراودني شك ..

في نفسي  و في إنفعالي ..

عجيبة تلك النفس نفسي

تريد ماضٍ ولَى

وفي ذات الوقت الحاضر الحالي ..

قال لها عقلي لما تطمعين ..

ألا يكفيكي عالم واحد ..

أم تطمحين إلى عالم مثالي..

أم أنانيتك ترفض القبول حتى بالمحال؟

ردت تقول بل تائهة في بحور انشغالي..

لست أعلم ما مرادي من تمني زماني..

متى تخر صعقاً تلال أوهامي..

أم هي جبال من أحلامي ؟

لا أعلم كنهها ولا أين مستقرها ..

ولا أعلم أي طريق اسلك لها..

حاضري… أم زماني ..

7 thoughts on “حاضري… أم زماني ..

  1. Mimi says:

    Confusion and indecision in it’s best form, keep writing M!
    Allak NN hibernation le7ad 10 bee em, rakezy fele bete3meleeh!

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  2. ghada says:

    zamanek is gone. it is memories. enjoy the memories but focus on the present.

    you try to enjoy today and dream and aspire for tomorrow all you want….but the past is gone🙂 keep the memories but that’s about it. we need to get that!

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  3. doaa says:

    7elwaaa awyyyy ya mariam ma sha2 Allah enty mawhoba f3ln

    i like the topic u r taking about coz many people have the same confusion

    bs bgd 3agbny 2slobk awy

    keep it ya marioomy :))))))

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  4. Mimi says:

    I agree with Googa, the past is gone 7’alas, we need to focus on the present, that’s why it’s a gift to us. Cherish the memories, but always try to make new ones.

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  5. Well tab3an I agree with all of u eno khalas “zamany” da 3ada..bas sometimes u aspire for zamanek eno yetkarar..wel 7ayat 3alemtny 7aga mohema we heya “careful what u wish for” coz in some sort of way it JUST comes true that thing u wish for..even if it is reliving “zamany” ..el moshkla heya el indecision…wel tama3 bardo for having the best of both worlds..
    I thank you all for ur kind words and encouragement tho..

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  6. hagar says:

    ya mariam!y do u wanna stop dreaming about a better situation/place/circumstances/life??!!!it’s what keeps life goin on!
    u have to let ur “3a2lek” accept the fact that u have to keep on thinkin what’s the next step to make ur life better/happier/more intersting!

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    • @Hagar: ma7adesh 2al eny mesh 3awza a7lam be mosta2bal a7san khales..dy makanetsh el no2ta.. el no2ta heya el confusion between mady nefsy yerga3 we 7ader mesh 3arfa a3eesho wala astamte3 beeh men kotr mana “hooked up” 3ala “zamany” ..mesh 3arfa ana 3awza anho..wala 7ata leeh..
      nevertheless..thanks for the comment🙂

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